Daily Archives: September 9, 2011

My Husband Dave…His Memory Lives On~Written by Gabby


Memories
Autumn has encouraged me to write this and share the story of my husband Dave. So I am taking her advice and writing about my wonderful husband. This has needed writing for quite some time, honestly. Dave’s memory will live on, I will make sure it does. Dave has so very much been on my mind, more than the usual I mean.
 About my husband, Dave was and will forever be my soulmate. My sweet Dave, and my once in a lifetime love. Sadly, I lost him to cancer eight years ago on May 30th of this year. To me it seems more like eight minutes ago most of the time . They say time heals, but I’m sorry they are wrong because it doesn’t.
Does anyone have the perfect love story? Probably not, because none of us as human being are perfect. I would just have to say ours was as perfect as it gets … For me, anyway.
The Diagnosis 
Dave was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma (bone marrow cancer) on June 3rd of 1998, the day that started changing my entire world forever.  If anyone is following the blogs here, then you may heard Autumn and I speaking about our Dad, also who passed away from Multiple Myeloma.  It’s not a made up story, it’s real…They passed away exactly 40 days apart from this same evil cancer. Dad being the 40 days after Dave. I also miss my Dad every day of my life, this cancer robbed me of the two most important men in my life. I don’t think Dad would mind if I center the rest of this post on Dave, he is no doubt giving me a thumbs up as I write.
Dave
Well, Dave was so incredibly strong and a very special man in so many ways. He walked into my life when we were both rather young, and he never left. Dave was an educator, a carpenter, a musician…All in one package. His sense of humor was amazing, we laughed quite a lot and often.We brought out the very best in each other, we were just simply meant to be. The musical part of him, well that was just plain magic… A real God given talent.
 Dave had a wonderful voice… He so often sang to me, sometimes I would fall asleep to the sound of his voice. He played drums, guitar and piano. While in bands he was always the drummer, he just was outstanding.
We both shared this love of music so very much. Dave also was the bringer of surprises, sometimes wild flowers, chocolate and other assorted things…Just because. We didn’t limit our gifts to each other for only birthdays (which were only 5 days apart) and holidays. He used to joke about being very old people and still having a blast and rocking it out. Also, he had conjured up a story of how we could exit this life in the same instant. That way neither of us would ever suffer without the other one, we were just too joined that way. Too bad that story didn’t go as planned.
Dave was a romantic, to the very core. To the outside world he just appeared a very happy guy who loved his wife and was clearly loved in return. Dave called me his angel, well I thought he was mine. He had such a gift for making every day we shared an adventure, he really did. One of the last memories of us while Dave was still healthy…Romping around a large amusement park. It was so much fun, we acted like young kids and just lived that day to the fullest. I’m sure we also made tons of people look twice, wondering who were these two crazy people? Racing from ride to ride and laughing loud and long. So many, many memories and that is my blessing because most of them are happy.
Love that transcends time
When he was diagnosed, we joined forces to beat this evil beast and kept fighting hard. Yet, we lost. And I continue going on… because I promised Dave I would. I am not saying it’s easy, I would clearly be lying if I said that. In speaking with Dave’s cousin Emily, she said something quite profound. Her words to me “You and Dave just had and still have such a love, it transcends time.” I think she’s right, we had pure magic together and so much love.
 Each and every day is a challenge, but time goes by very quickly and I will meet up with Dave on the other side. For those of you blessed to have found love, hold on tightly and treat it kindly, please.
Oh, I almost forgot…If you see a star shining very brightly in the sky? Well, that would be Dave.

Blessed Are the Peacemakers ~written by Gabby


It’s not easy

Yes indeed…Blessed we peacemakers are! Why am I including myself? Because I am and will always be one of the peacemakers of this planet earth place. Is it an easy task? No, but I sure do try and try, then try harder…On it goes. I have always been this way,  I am proud of it too I must say.

Wise decision this being a peacemaker person? I don’t know, it’s the only way I can be. For me, it’s just not really a decision. It’s the way I’m made. So many people just dont even think about all this. They are just miserable, mean individuals and will stay that way until the end of time.

They just love a good fight, you know the kind I’m talking about? The nasty type, always loving to stir up a good fight and keep it going. Can you please these people…No, Never! I have tried many a time, it can’t be done. I used to get o frustrated, almost physically sick around and among fighting. Those arguments and horrible, ugly words being exchanged…I used to cry, lots.

All you need is Love

How I grew up there, there were 6 girls, including me in the family. Well, we were taught to always try and find peace with each other. Try not to make hateful statements, just do your best and get along. Of course arguing and bad words sometimes broke out, we were all girls! At the end of the day, nobody was going to sleep angry though. That was one of the rules, never let the sun set on your anger. If it took forever anyone not getting along, playing nice had to make amends.

Not always peace

It was such a sad shock as I got older, venturing out into thre real world.  Becausethe more I was out there in the real world, the more I saw very few people like me. I steered as far away from those evil, scary types as I could. Trying to be nice, calm things down whenever possible. Well, it wasn’t such an easy job. But, whenever thrown into a situation that was bad, I did try to stress the whole thing about why the whole peace attitude was so much better. I got laughed at sometimes, well many times actually…But it was how I rolled.

If a real determined person kept nailing me and I saw I couldn’t get my point across? Well, I walked awayand kept walking, too. I know it can’t be all peace, love, happiness and so on. But I refuse to surround myself with negativity if I can help it. It’s so very, very bad for the soul and the heart also.

Bad Vibes

Do I  expect everyone to be like me? Of course not…That would make it Heaven, not Earth. It happened quite recently, I was caught up in the midst of a person with such bad vibes. I am talking, a very closed heart, so closed it would never find peace. Just wanting to find all the bad in almost every instance, making others miserable. I really dislike losing the battle of not getting someone to change their heart. To find just a little light, maybe some forgiveness. It’s like a personal defeat for me. What to do? Walk away, no make that run as fast as I possibly could. It really is quite sad to be someone like this individual…What do I do?

Good Vibes

I thank God my heart and my life will never go that way, and I really do pray. I am a grown up and I do understand it can’t be all peace, love, handing out hugs and smiles and flowers. That life exists only in my dreams and like I mentioned before…Heaven. Just a thought to ponder on for the day, everyone.

Hoping perhaps you will take away some good vibes from this, just think about it, OK? Love and Peace Rules for me! 🙂

The magic …..


… of wishing on a star

It can happen

I wish on stars sometimes.  I wish for all sorts of things.  Who ever knows what can happen.   Peace and love and hope for mankind?  Well that’s needed for sure.

Magic in the skies, you just have to look and you never know what you may find. I believe in magic.  I think we should “reach for the stars”.

Yesterday

Actually quite a few yesterdays ago when I was a child I used to watch the night sky and wish and wish.

I think the wishing is what made me hold on to the magic even today. So here I am and I still love the night skies.

Don’t give up your dreams for anyone or anything! Because who knows…close your eyes after finding that “magic star” and wish 🙂

Life

It’s full of surprises, life is.  It throws us a curve sometimes, then when we least expect it it “magic”…. something good happens.  I call that a “Zap”.

So find yourself a star tonight and wish, wish and wish again~  and may your wishes, dreams and hopes come true 🙂

Words~Written by Autumn Sunshine


Words

Words run so rapidly
through my mind
I can't keep up--
Inside my heart, I feel
so much pain
along with the rain...
Words left unspoken
Words...
too many,
forming thoughts
that I never speak
I'm keeping them deep
and safe
Inside
I am alive--I am,
A miracle
but God watches over
fools like me.....