Pondering and Wondering Again… BY Gabrielle Angel

So, I am wondering and pondering again. I do that a lot actually, more often than I should. Am I the only one who worries about odd things? Things that may never happen, things that have happened, passing thoughts about people and events.

Any or all of the above that may have happened already, may never happen again. I wonder if worry is even the correct word? Or is pondering, wondering more accurate? Whether I am busy, meandering about doing things or just hanging out doing not much of anything…It always happens. An active mind, well that’s good isn’t it? Sure it is, or so I hear tell!  Anyway, I was driving and kind of worrying/pondering and all once again. A specific thought kept running through my mind. Traffic around me, a song on the CD and my mind just takes off.

I am thinking about an acquaintance who I had an unplesant short chat with  by telephone before I left my house.Why does this person persist in constantly asking favors?  Of me, of others and I sort of shudder over the selfishness of it all. Not really even a friend anymore,too exhausting to have for a friend quite honestly. I can’t allow people to do that, I would rather disconnect.

What I would like to do is play this person the Eagles song, Get Over it. I think the line applies, “The big, bad world doesn’t owe you a thing” is quite accurate for this person. I am a nice person, but not a doormat after all and I have spoken my peace before to this acquaintance.

In talking to my twin sister Autumn about this one, she is much more blunt and that’s good. She offers such sage advice that I badly need to hear. That twinnie is sure a blessing. Then my mind takes off again, and I am thinking about nice people who I call friends and also other trusted family members.

My cousin, he is so much like me and I love him dearly. He gets into these similiar situations in his life. We had talked recently about this one person who invades his well behaving in much the same way. He laughingly told me we must just care too much and come across the wrong way.

 Maybe we all have such people around us? It’s something to ponder for the day, anyone have any thoughts on this? It’s just much better to kick this sort of person out of our lives, but why do they have the nerve to keep coming back I wonder?! A mystery and kind of pitiful…Some people on this earth just are takers and some givers. Never the twain shall meet, I wish. Why am I bothered about wanting to change this person?

 You can’t change anyone but yourself, after all and I do know this. This was again one of my daily ponderings, wonderings or worries…Thanks for listening!

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