I got out my ornaments today, in hopes of getting my Christmas tree decorated. Doing kind of OK until I opened one box. There they were, the lovely silver angel ornaments my husband Dave had gotten for me. It was in 2001, he died May 30th of 2003.
There are a half dozen beauful angels, very unusal and I loved them upon first sight. He got to enjoy them with me for two Christmases…That’s a happy memory. Big mistake on trying for the tree being decorated today, it’s exactly 8 & 1/2 years to the day I lost him to that evil beast cancer.
I try not to pay attention to the 30th of every month, but I usually fail. That may sound rather strange to some people. It’s just the way I am, I make no apologizes for my feelings about Dave to anyone. Anyway, these angel ornaments…Just looking at them reduced me to tears again. The tears dripped onto the angels making me feel even worse. Such a beautiful and loving gift, I feel guilty because Dave doesn’t want me to be sad. I miss him… he was my husband, soulmate and to be taken so young.
It is more difficult at the holidays…It always is, sadly I never quite get used to that. I ended up putting all my ornaments away, maybe tomorrow I will be able to decorate the tree. Maybe tomorrow…I will feel stronger. Maybe tomorrow I won’t cry. Maybe the angel ornaments will work their magic and I can smile. Some days are just more difficult than others. Anyone reading Autumn’s and my blog, you must realize I am an optimistic person.I strive to somehow reach for the upside, the positive. To find a degree of happiness and joy every single day I am alive.Unless you have felt my loss, which I wish on nobody…I suppose it’s hard to understand.
I will round up my twinnie to help me decorate the tree. Autumn will help me make it more joyful, perhaps we will find things to laugh about. We can hang those angel ornaments up together. She is my twin sister, I am blessed…I never take that for granted, never. She knows how I am feeling and helps me as she has been doing since Dave was diagnosed in 1998. Thank you twinnie, for always being there for me…I love you, TF <3=Twins Forever.
I will help you, Twinnie!! This time of year is sadder, we miss Dave and also Dad. The angels are beautiful, and Dave always called you his Angel. I like to think of him watching over you and probably me, too and saying “good job”! He was the best brother that I could ask for. We have to remember the good times, Gabs. We can decorate together 🙂 I love you too heaps! TF ❤ = Twins Forever Always and always 🙂
Thank you, I knew I can always count on you twinnie. I sure do miss Dave and Dad, too so much, it is sad…But they both want me to smile. Dave always called me his angel, that’s why the angel ornaments. I know they are both watching over, so we will do a good job decorating the tree and make them proud. 🙂 Thanks again, twinnie and I love you heaps, too. Forever and always and always, TF <3=Twins Forever
Beautiful post, ty for sharing breaks my heart to see you hurting. Im glad you havr Autmn to help you push on during the holidays and every other days. God Bless U:)
Thank you so much PJ for your kind words and being the Very Special You. I am trying so hard, today was just not a good day. Tomorrow will be better, I just am sorry to make you sad. Thankfully I do have Autumn, she is the best twin ever. Sending you love and hugs PJ, you are the sweetest friend and thanks for blessings. God Bless you, too!
I have that same Angel ornament and it one of my favorites 🙂
That is cool you have the same Angel ornament. 🙂 I love the unusual, most of my Angel ornaments fall in that category it seems. 🙂
Your about me is beautiful. I feel like we have a lot in common, love for all things and plenty of hope for peace. I look forward to reading your blog. Cheers
Thanks Bailey, sounds like we do have a lot of common things. All good things, too I must say! My twin sister Autumn who shares this blog is also in the same group. It’s nice to know there are some of us who feel this way. 🙂 Autumn and I will get over to your blog soon, too. Thank you again for stopping by to visit our blog Bailey. 🙂 Cheers, Gabby
My darling wife and I always tell each other how much we mean to each other, and every phone call and every kiss goodbye has a deeper meaning for us, because we are always keenly aware that each parting could be the last time ever.
Thank you about the ornaments. 🙂 This is the one of the most serious comments I have ever exchanged with you. It makes me happy that you and your wife cherish your marriage. The phone calls, kisses goodbye and the I love you’s are so important. Dave and I had 5 years until the final goodbye, it still wasn’t long enough. I will be praying for you in your travels to stay safe and for a very long and happy marriage! 🙂
I pray that you and Autumn have the best time decorating together. I am sure she will cheer you up, wipe your tears and put a sweet smile on your face as you hang your precious angel ornaments. Merry Christmas Gabby!
Autumn and I decorated my tree a little earlier and had a good time. Thank you so much for your kind words Lori, they mean so much to me. Merry Christmas to you and your family, too! 🙂
This is so raw with emotion and yes, after getting to know you, I know how lively, happy and optimistic you are…but, anyone in your shoes would understand. I understand, even though I haven’t walked your path. I’m glad you and your wonderful twin were able to find happiness when you decorated your tree. The ornaments are beautiful and you truly were very lucky and blessed to have experienced such a wonderful and true love in Dave~Hang in there and if you need to cry, then cry…another wonderful blogger, Granbee, told me that tears are also cleansing, so it’s all fine, shed those tears and be cleansed, then you can enjoy the next memory~ Sending hugs your way!
Lauren, Thank you for all the beautiful, kind words. Also, for the understanding how I can get this way at times. Tears can be cleansing, that is so true and what a wise person Granbee must be. I have been so up and down these last 8 & 1/2 years, I think I will always have some of those days. I was so blessed to have had Dave all those years and the wonderful love we shared. Today was a bit better and Autumn helped me get the tree decorated, we did laugh some, too. Thank you again for being such a wonderful friend Lauren, sending hugs back! 🙂
Thanks for the hugs, too, and I’m always “here” to listen if you need a shoulder! 🙂