Love Street ?


We’re walking down our street

Darling man says I’m so sweet

I take his hand and twirl around

He laughs, that lovely sound

What a silly pair

We’re off without a care

Love street is our home base

Smiles upon our face

We love and live

that’s what we give

so laughing on the way

every single day

We love to sing

and bring

while we ring

in a new tomorrow …

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You call me Sunshine ~by Autumn Sunshine


You’re allowed to call me that name

the same

one my Dad once called me

The only man I say, it’s OK, it’s you

it’s really true

You always knew

I thought you special and fine

the kind

I say, “I do” with…

As we walk along the path of life

My forever man and I am your wife

Your eyes meet mine with that silly grin

How can we not win?

You are the other half of me, my heart

and as we start

along on our way

Tomorrow and today

We have the bond of joy so strong

always will belong

together and loving our way

into the future…

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My Husband Dave…His Memory Lives On~Written by Gabby


Memories
Autumn has encouraged me to write this and share the story of my husband Dave. So I am taking her advice and writing about my wonderful husband. This has needed writing for quite some time, honestly. Dave’s memory will live on, I will make sure it does. Dave has so very much been on my mind, more than the usual I mean.
 About my husband, Dave was and will forever be my soulmate. My sweet Dave, and my once in a lifetime love. Sadly, I lost him to cancer eight years ago on May 30th of this year. To me it seems more like eight minutes ago most of the time . They say time heals, but I’m sorry they are wrong because it doesn’t.
Does anyone have the perfect love story? Probably not, because none of us as human being are perfect. I would just have to say ours was as perfect as it gets … For me, anyway.
The Diagnosis 
Dave was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma (bone marrow cancer) on June 3rd of 1998, the day that started changing my entire world forever.  If anyone is following the blogs here, then you may heard Autumn and I speaking about our Dad, also who passed away from Multiple Myeloma.  It’s not a made up story, it’s real…They passed away exactly 40 days apart from this same evil cancer. Dad being the 40 days after Dave. I also miss my Dad every day of my life, this cancer robbed me of the two most important men in my life. I don’t think Dad would mind if I center the rest of this post on Dave, he is no doubt giving me a thumbs up as I write.
Dave
Well, Dave was so incredibly strong and a very special man in so many ways. He walked into my life when we were both rather young, and he never left. Dave was an educator, a carpenter, a musician…All in one package. His sense of humor was amazing, we laughed quite a lot and often.We brought out the very best in each other, we were just simply meant to be. The musical part of him, well that was just plain magic… A real God given talent.
 Dave had a wonderful voice… He so often sang to me, sometimes I would fall asleep to the sound of his voice. He played drums, guitar and piano. While in bands he was always the drummer, he just was outstanding.
We both shared this love of music so very much. Dave also was the bringer of surprises, sometimes wild flowers, chocolate and other assorted things…Just because. We didn’t limit our gifts to each other for only birthdays (which were only 5 days apart) and holidays. He used to joke about being very old people and still having a blast and rocking it out. Also, he had conjured up a story of how we could exit this life in the same instant. That way neither of us would ever suffer without the other one, we were just too joined that way. Too bad that story didn’t go as planned.
Dave was a romantic, to the very core. To the outside world he just appeared a very happy guy who loved his wife and was clearly loved in return. Dave called me his angel, well I thought he was mine. He had such a gift for making every day we shared an adventure, he really did. One of the last memories of us while Dave was still healthy…Romping around a large amusement park. It was so much fun, we acted like young kids and just lived that day to the fullest. I’m sure we also made tons of people look twice, wondering who were these two crazy people? Racing from ride to ride and laughing loud and long. So many, many memories and that is my blessing because most of them are happy.
Love that transcends time
When he was diagnosed, we joined forces to beat this evil beast and kept fighting hard. Yet, we lost. And I continue going on… because I promised Dave I would. I am not saying it’s easy, I would clearly be lying if I said that. In speaking with Dave’s cousin Emily, she said something quite profound. Her words to me “You and Dave just had and still have such a love, it transcends time.” I think she’s right, we had pure magic together and so much love.
 Each and every day is a challenge, but time goes by very quickly and I will meet up with Dave on the other side. For those of you blessed to have found love, hold on tightly and treat it kindly, please.
Oh, I almost forgot…If you see a star shining very brightly in the sky? Well, that would be Dave.

Today~written By Autumn Sunshine


Today

Today I remember

yesterday

the smiles

and the laughter

and happiness

planning

our future

and now

you are gone,

only a whisper

away

but on the other

side …

and I am here

and missing you

it’s the waiting

to understand

and the time to heal

that is the worst …

I have made it

through

the hell …

Craig~ only a whisper away … Forever, Babe! Death did not win ❤

It’s You~written by Autumn Sunshine


It’s You

I can say honestly

that I have never felt this way before

Never…

I never loved anyone this completely

so totally…

I feel like we are one person at times

so in tune …

It scares me, even the thought

of having to ever live without you

I can’t do it …

I love you —

Nightmares come true

it seems

and this means

I live

and give

forever to your memory …

Craig~death doesn’t win~meet you on the other side

Love~by Autumn Sunshine


Love

You touch my life

with gentle threads of hope and love

my heart is yours —

all of what is me

is free —

with you

I am alive …

I love you

so true —

Let our lives be entwined

Forever

You complete me

the answer to my question —

I promise to always

let you be you

and me be me —

Take my hand

Let’s dance through the shadows

into tomorrow …

Only in my Dreams.. ~written by Gabrielle Angel


It was another “Dave dream” last night. Kind of so nice, comforting and real…Until I woke up. Looked over at the other pillow, Dave isn’t there, he hasn’t been there for over 8 years now.

If any of you are following the blogs, sorry to repeat myself. I lost my husband Dave to cancer and it’s been so unsettling and quite difficult. In my dreams he is with me, off on one of our adventures and it’s all so good. Life sure is strange sometimes, expect the unexpected I’ve learned.

One thing that upset me the other day, was a woman being nasty to her husband at the grocery store. She was about my age, she was busy telling him off left and right. Kind of appalling and disgusting, not to mention pretty darn personal. It was so hard restraining myself from saying something quite outspoken to her. How I would loved to say, “He’s alive, count your blessings and be kind to the poor man. If you dislike him, well get a divorce or whatever!”

It really was irritating to me and I thought back to the times of Dave and I in stores. We always had so much fun, kind of always laughing and finding some way to entertain each other. We weren’t rude to other people or disrespectful in any way, we just had a good time. That poor man getting told off by his wife, I just could imagine what Dave would have to say about that happening.

We both just thought it was a waste of time and space to be around anything or anyone who made you miserable. It really is something I do avoid at all costs still, it’s not worth it. So, in my dreams I have my husband back…Sometimes I would just like to stay there. He is singing to me, laughing with me and he is so incredibly beside me. I miss him very much, still and I know I always will. Of course I can’t stay in my dreams were Dave visits me, I need to reside in real life.

I was chatting with Autumn about this, since Craig (her late fiance and soulmate) visits her dreams quite often, too. She agreed with me and we talked about them both at length. They were both such caring, loving and wonderful men…Why did we each have to go through the torture of losing them? The divine order of things and all that? Probably, but it’s best if we both don’t dwell on it long, but it’s good to talk about Dave and Craig.

Those remarkable men that were ours, we were blessed to have them in our lives of course we were. Sometimes when we’re together and people who don’t know us hear we both lost our soulmates…We kind of get these odd looks. Once Autumn was so annoyed by someone who said,” isn’t that unusual? You are twins and both had the same loss.” Her snappy retort was, “We didn’t kill them off ourselves, honest”. Sorry, maybe you had to be there to appreciate it. Craig and Dave would have gotten a chuckle at it ( and they probably did), their humor was much like ours. It did make us both laugh pretty hard, the guy who said such a thing was quite regretful. Autumn went on to elaborate how that’s what he seemed to be implying, so she had to say it!

Autumn, that twinnie sure is a real hoot to be hanging out with. That girl will always speak her mind whenever and whever, I do too. But she is so much better at it! So, in my dreams and Autumn’s…We meet up with Dave and Craig and we are each accepted an loved just for our own twinnie selves.

No need to wish either of “Sweet Dreams”, don’t worry we will be having plenty of them. 🙂

Craig – in loving memory of “us” ~by Autumn Sunshine


Craig – in loving memory of “us”

You are in my dreams

and you feel so real

I wake up and look around,

but as always

you are not here …

I love you, I miss you

and I need you …

It hurts, cuts like a very sharp knife …

Why did I believe that one day

we would be married

live happily ever after …

In our next life

maybe?

Or will you return to me

in my dreams over and over

Until I meet you on the other side …

A LOVE LIKE OURS CAN SURVIVE DEATH — AND IT HAS

Quotes, When love ends~by Autumn Sunshine


On when love ends…

“I’m smiling … don’t look too close or you’ll see the tears”

“I’m surviving … what you destroyed within my soul, I am rebuilding”

“It’s so easy … no one notices as I fade away into the shadows of doubt”

“Laughing at life … the joke is on you … I win, because you lost”

“Love is not supposed to hurt … so you and I are not LOVE”

“My walls are higher now … somehow I will close this chapter and turn the page”

“Save my soul you said, I just looked at you and laughed, you have no soul”

“Strange, I actually like you again … our dance with destiny ended … yet we are friends”

“Take one last look if you want to … I’m gone, you never deserved even one tenth of the love I gave you

“You made me smile … now the tides have turned … I’ve learned”

“Your silence tells me more than your words ever did”