A Picture and the Memories… ~BY Gabby Angel

I was looking at one of my favorite pictures of my husband Dave last night. Any of you kind readers following my twin sister Autumn’s and my blog are aware, I lost Dave to cancer. He’s been gone over 8 years now, I miss him like crazy every day. About this picture, it’s of Dave smiling as he was singing and playing his acoustic guitar. He kept singing, as I snapped that particular picture.

I remember the evening he was singing this song to me so very well. I can close my eyes and conjure up the memories so easily, I feel am quite fortunate that way. The song, Joe Cocker‘s “You are So Beautiful to Me“, a beautiful song, a beautiful memory.

Dave sang so many, many times and so many, many songs to me…I miss that so very much. Recordings I have of him singing are wonderful, but not quite  the same. Looking at this picture of Dave last night just made me cry, kept  me crying for quite the spell. I finally got a grip, and finally stopped…It was because I could almost hear his voice. That’s how well connected we were, I could almost hear him saying….Please don’t cry sweetheart, I am always with you. He is of course, because he promised he would be…As often as Heaven allowed anyway.

I got to remembering so many things about Dave and me, our time together and our first meeting when we were 16 years old. He came roaring into my life in a mustang. That’s a long story that I will save for another time. I got to remembering silly and happy times throughout our years together.

One of my favorite memories was the proposal night. Others were just odds and ends of other thoughts and memories. I have to share the night he proposed. Very romantic it was, Dave really did propose to me on bended knee. After the beautiful wildflowers (they are my favorite) and the candlelight dinner, which he had made by the way. Dave had learned to cook at a pretty young age, so it really was a lovely dinner.

That man had already won my heart right from the beginning, just as he said I had won his.Dave and I were blessed in many ways, I keep trying to remember this fact. Some days or nights are just more difficult than others. Next to this picture of Dave on my wall, I have a set of his drumsticks hanging. I took them down and held them, that was comforting to me. It made me smile, he loved playing his drums and I pictured an early memory. Dave was in one of his first bands. He was rocking it out, behind those set of drums and singing his heart out. These are the times I want to remember…Dave and his music. I fell asleep listening to him singing ( a recording of course)…I had very happy dreams.


The Twins Become Teenage Groupies~by Gabby Angel :)

Becoming teenage groupies how exciting does that sound?

We’re with the Band

Autumn and I were over the moon when our cousin announced to us he was forming a band with 3 of his friends. We were 141/2 years old & this was going to be ever so awesome!  We had our own tambourines and of course loved to sing, alas the guys wouldn’t let us be IN the band with them. The hanging out at practice and some gigs was making us dance with joy as it was. So, no complaints from us!

We had met the guys before and knew them somewhat, they were all a few years older than us. Rock stars already in our teenage minds! Our cousin David was and still is an extremely talented singer, songwriter and guitarist; he was so humble and also still is about his talent. He’s a cousin on the Italian side and he’s like a brother to us; luckily also very patient then and now with us. First practice was coming up and would be at the drummer’s house in his parents garage. OK Autumn and I were excited to be going for the music, but honestly also we were busy deciding what to wear, how to do our hair and all that girly sort of thing.


Randy was Autumn’s crush and took her hand at one point, dancing her around. She is my twin sister and I do swear the girl was swooning, I kid you not!  In my mind Randy really kicked off her love of the “Hair Bands”.  It was her David Coverdale clone in person!  Anyway she is a bit more outgoing than me, so she was in her element. I myself almost passed out when Mike handed me his drumsticks and our hands touched … heaven knows what I would have done if he had taken my hand and danced me around!  Oh my, the silliness of young girls is something else as I reflect back to that day.

Practice was coming to an end and Randy was already inviting Autumn along for next week, I was chatting to David, Mike and Rob (Oops, didn’t mean to leave him out). To clarify Rob’s instrument was the key boards and he was also a nice guy. They welcomed us all of them, of course loving the idea of this whole groupie thing. We ended up being a big draw for them at later gigs, the groupie twins who also sang and just simply loved shaking our tambourines.

How it all ends

Did any of us end up hitting the big time, sadly no we didn’t but they did have a local following that wasn’t too shabby  Did Autumn or I end up with our crushes, no again but we all remained friends. Ironically enough I married my very own drummer Dave and his voice rocked my world, sadly he passed away 8 years ago with evil cancer and my soulmate awaits me in Heaven. Autumn’s best guy her late fiance Craig was also a very gifted bass player and a wonderful singer. The guys were in a band together for quite some time though, I would say we were Dave and Craig’s best groupies.  After all we had lots of practice as teenagers, didn’t we?

Goodbye doesn’t mean Forever

Never say never

You never know so don’t say goodbye, it’s not always forever.  I like to say “later”… even if someone dies it doesn’t have to be that they are gone from us for always. We have memories, we have “the great hereafter” we have or we should have hope.

So it’s how I live these days.  I hold on to the hope that it’s not a forever goodbye.

I guess you could say I have lost many people I have loved, quite a few to death, my Dad, my late fiance, Craig he died from a brain aneurysm and that was sudden.  I think losing a loved one or “the love of your life” to death is not final, it’s just not! I refuse to believe it’s final.

Not forever

Keeping  a positive attitude helps 🙂 which is soooo easy to say, but it’s not easy, it’s really very difficult.  So I just think of it as another challenge. Hmmm… I know, that makes is sound better 😉

I remember a line from a song, “nothing lasts forever but the Earth and Sky… a song by Kansas, the song is called “Dust in the Wind“.

The Other song

Here are the lyrics for the other song, it’s Called “The Goodbye Girl”  I am not the goodbye girl, I won’t say goodbye, never, ever!!!!

Goodbye Girl

All your life you’ve waited for love to come and stay
And now that I have found you, you must not slip away
I know it’s hard believin’ the words you’ve heard before
But darlin’ you must trust them just once more… ’cause baby
Goodbye doesn’t mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye doesn’t mean
We’ll never be together again
If you wake up and I’m not there, I won’t be long away
’cause the things you do my goodbye girl
Will bring me back toyou.
I know you’ve been taken, afraid to hurt again You fight the love you feel for me instead of givin’ in But I can wait forever, a-helpin’ you to see That I was meant for you and you for me…so rememberGoodbye doesn’t mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye doesn’t mean
We’ll never be together again
Though we may be so far apart you still will have my heart
So forget your past my goodbye girl
’cause now you’re home at last.


Never goodbye … just try and switch to saying “Later”… it’s easy 🙂