Pondering and Wondering Again… BY Gabrielle Angel


So, I am wondering and pondering again. I do that a lot actually, more often than I should. Am I the only one who worries about odd things? Things that may never happen, things that have happened, passing thoughts about people and events.
Any or all of the above that may have happened already, may never happen again. I wonder if worry is even the correct word? Or is pondering, wondering more accurate? Whether I am busy, meandering about doing things or just hanging out doing not much of anything…It always happens. An active mind, well that’s good isn’t it? Sure it is, or so I hear tell!  Anyway, I was driving and kind of worrying/pondering and all once again. A specific thought kept running through my mind. Traffic around me, a song on the CD and my mind just takes off.
I am thinking about an acquaintance who I had an unplesant short chat with  by telephone before I left my house.Why does this person persist in constantly asking favors?  Of me, of others and I sort of shudder over the selfishness of it all. Not really even a friend anymore,too exhausting to have for a friend quite honestly. I can’t allow people to do that, I would rather disconnect.
What I would like to do is play this person the Eagles song, Get Over it. I think the line applies, “The big, bad world doesn’t owe you a thing” is quite accurate for this person. I am a nice person, but not a doormat after all and I have spoken my peace before to this acquaintance.
In talking to my twin sister Autumn about this one, she is much more blunt and that’s good. She offers such sage advice that I badly need to hear. That twinnie is sure a blessing. Then my mind takes off again, and I am thinking about nice people who I call friends and also other trusted family members.
My cousin, he is so much like me and I love him dearly. He gets into these similiar situations in his life. We had talked recently about this one person who invades his well behaving in much the same way. He laughingly told me we must just care too much and come across the wrong way.
 Maybe we all have such people around us? It’s something to ponder for the day, anyone have any thoughts on this? It’s just much better to kick this sort of person out of our lives, but why do they have the nerve to keep coming back I wonder?! A mystery and kind of pitiful…Some people on this earth just are takers and some givers. Never the twain shall meet, I wish. Why am I bothered about wanting to change this person?
 You can’t change anyone but yourself, after all and I do know this. This was again one of my daily ponderings, wonderings or worries…Thanks for listening!

Heart of Stone ~By Autumn Sunshine


Heart of Stone

What do I do
I am through
with the game
and the lame
excuses you give
I just want to live
and be happy……
my heart is made of stone
I am going to be alone
all I want now is peace….
and no more lies
or tries
to be someone
I don’t even know…..
never
ever
will you know
how low
and sad
and sometimes mad
I feel
you steal
not heal
and I want out now!!!!

John Lennon’s Birthday… ~written By Gabby Angel


It’s today, October 9th and he would have been 71 years old. John Lennon such a man of peace, he is still with many of us in our hearts and thoughts. We have all of his beautifully awesome music, that will always live on. I just couldn’t let this day, his birthday go by without recognizing this date. This is just a short post, Autumn and I just wanted to acknowledge this day. To say Happy Birthday John and we miss you!

So very hard to believe he’s been gone for almost 31 years. I know Yoko needs to be given a mention, she is amazing in her ways of carrying on John and her legacy for peace. They shared the dream together, as well as a very special and unique love. Whenever I think of someone I would have loved to sit and have a chat with…It’s John. I’m sure many people who would have loved this also. So for all of you thinking of John Lennon today, his birthday…Autumn and I send you love, hugs and smiles, and last but not least Peace!

Blessed Are the Peacemakers ~written by Gabby


It’s not easy

Yes indeed…Blessed we peacemakers are! Why am I including myself? Because I am and will always be one of the peacemakers of this planet earth place. Is it an easy task? No, but I sure do try and try, then try harder…On it goes. I have always been this way,  I am proud of it too I must say.

Wise decision this being a peacemaker person? I don’t know, it’s the only way I can be. For me, it’s just not really a decision. It’s the way I’m made. So many people just dont even think about all this. They are just miserable, mean individuals and will stay that way until the end of time.

They just love a good fight, you know the kind I’m talking about? The nasty type, always loving to stir up a good fight and keep it going. Can you please these people…No, Never! I have tried many a time, it can’t be done. I used to get o frustrated, almost physically sick around and among fighting. Those arguments and horrible, ugly words being exchanged…I used to cry, lots.

All you need is Love

How I grew up there, there were 6 girls, including me in the family. Well, we were taught to always try and find peace with each other. Try not to make hateful statements, just do your best and get along. Of course arguing and bad words sometimes broke out, we were all girls! At the end of the day, nobody was going to sleep angry though. That was one of the rules, never let the sun set on your anger. If it took forever anyone not getting along, playing nice had to make amends.

Not always peace

It was such a sad shock as I got older, venturing out into thre real world.  Becausethe more I was out there in the real world, the more I saw very few people like me. I steered as far away from those evil, scary types as I could. Trying to be nice, calm things down whenever possible. Well, it wasn’t such an easy job. But, whenever thrown into a situation that was bad, I did try to stress the whole thing about why the whole peace attitude was so much better. I got laughed at sometimes, well many times actually…But it was how I rolled.

If a real determined person kept nailing me and I saw I couldn’t get my point across? Well, I walked awayand kept walking, too. I know it can’t be all peace, love, happiness and so on. But I refuse to surround myself with negativity if I can help it. It’s so very, very bad for the soul and the heart also.

Bad Vibes

Do I  expect everyone to be like me? Of course not…That would make it Heaven, not Earth. It happened quite recently, I was caught up in the midst of a person with such bad vibes. I am talking, a very closed heart, so closed it would never find peace. Just wanting to find all the bad in almost every instance, making others miserable. I really dislike losing the battle of not getting someone to change their heart. To find just a little light, maybe some forgiveness. It’s like a personal defeat for me. What to do? Walk away, no make that run as fast as I possibly could. It really is quite sad to be someone like this individual…What do I do?

Good Vibes

I thank God my heart and my life will never go that way, and I really do pray. I am a grown up and I do understand it can’t be all peace, love, handing out hugs and smiles and flowers. That life exists only in my dreams and like I mentioned before…Heaven. Just a thought to ponder on for the day, everyone.

Hoping perhaps you will take away some good vibes from this, just think about it, OK? Love and Peace Rules for me! 🙂